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thebakasaru
17 July 2009 @ 01:10 am
1st, i gt addicted.
then i killed myself.
what's next vicki? what's next?

Who would have thought.These feelings that i thought i could stop.
i should stop them now.
and you should stop feeding my addiction.
And no, I wont find a new drug to cure myself.

because you are all that I wan now.
 
 
thebakasaru
05 May 2009 @ 11:21 pm
-.-  
It is amazing how things can change so much, how things can turn out and how much a person can change over such a short period of time.

And it is silly to lash it all out at the wrong person. *smiles* BUT, seeing is believing. AND YOU PHAIL BADLY.

On a side note, IHP is so slack and so deadly at the same time. OTZ||| I am glad I am still on schedule . WOOT!! <3 my classmates for being so awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xD
 
 
thebakasaru
11 February 2009 @ 03:58 am
I am very amused and had a good laugh.

ganbare.

such plans just amuses me so much.
 
 
Current Mood: Amused
 
 
thebakasaru
10 February 2009 @ 01:59 am

Your result for The Golden Compass Daemon Test...

Regal Soul

 


You love to be around people. Without them, you would wilt and fade away. Too much time alone leave you feeling listless and sad, but a good night out with your buddies puts the spring back into your step. You make friends easily, because you know how to adjust your behaviour for each person. With a rowdy, loud, social type of person you can be rowdy, and loud, and social. With a timid and mousy person you can be quiet and sensitive. While you have many friends and many faces, you have an inner circle of friends and family with whom you can truly be yourself.


You are a natural leader. You tend to be calm and rational, and it is rare that you get angry or upset. Often, when someone accidentally hurts your feelings, you will smile and pretend not to be bothered by it, because you want to project a positive, self confident image. You pick your battles. When someone does cross the line, they are often surprised at the sudden strength of your defensive attack. On the rare occasion that someone evokes anger or tears from you, it seems to them that this storm burst from clear blue skies.


Your daemon would represent your social, outgoing nature, your adaptable presence, and your tendency to hide your sensitive spots from strangers. He or she would help you mold yourself to every variety of social situation, being calm or playful or frightening as each situation demanded. When alone together, he or she would be someone whom you could share your real feelings with.


Suggested Forms: Lion, Orca, Chimpanzee, African Elephant, Goldfinch.


Take The Golden Compass Daemon Test
at HelloQuizzy
 

 
 
thebakasaru
21 January 2009 @ 11:11 pm
There is only this much I can keep to myself about.
There is only this much I can lie to myself about.
Do you know?
Will you want to know?
It feels selfish to not say.
It is like living in a lie.
 
 
thebakasaru
17 January 2009 @ 02:42 am
o_o  
why?
 
 
thebakasaru
30 December 2008 @ 02:21 am
.  
This smile is gone.
 
 
thebakasaru
28 December 2008 @ 03:39 am
.  
I hate you.
 
 
thebakasaru
18 December 2008 @ 01:10 pm
...  
I want to be able to protect people I love with determination and out of pure love too.

Just being implusive and all.
 
 
thebakasaru
15 December 2008 @ 11:06 pm
i ran out of love to give anyone.
it is so pointless , aint it?
It makes me want to cry.
 
 
thebakasaru
11 December 2008 @ 08:43 pm
.  
Out of your life I go.
I initiated it.
Not for me, but for you.
You are better off without me anyway.

There I've said it and I will say it again.
It is better this way.
 
 
thebakasaru
10 December 2008 @ 08:11 pm
-crawls out of hermit shell-

I am so clueless, it is blalantly stupid.
what have I been saying without knowing anything anyway?
Just who do I think I am?
Vic ar, maybe you should just stfu and die.


Since realisation have hit you right in the face now,
why don't you just go away and die?
 
 
thebakasaru
08 December 2008 @ 01:49 am
i am going to be a hermit.
Byebye people.

No love at all.
 
 
thebakasaru
06 December 2008 @ 03:58 am
I am actually making progress with my studying O.o i dunno if i feel happy or sad that the progress is so slow.
 
 
thebakasaru
05 December 2008 @ 03:08 pm
...  
i find life hard to believe sometimes.
yes , i am talking about you, life.

not a emo post. just a very thoughtful one.

and i hate it when programmers SUDDENLY try to make sense gramatically.-.- it just makes the whole thing harder to understand.
 
 
thebakasaru
05 December 2008 @ 01:08 am
cheebye.
this is not funny.
and I hate it when ANYONE does this to me.

fuck off.
 
 
thebakasaru
04 December 2008 @ 09:33 pm
--.-- I AM SO SIAN-ED. Fine, I am only supposed to make a total of 16 flowers but since i brought the crystals already, might as well. BUT BUT BUT the progress is so slow i have to rant.

what to do, finish ranting still have to continue with the flowers. Must complete all the flowers so that I can really realy concentrate on studying tomorrow. COMMON TEST DAMMIT.

STUPID CYCLE THAT IS COMING AGAIN. haiz, -feels so hateful-
 
 
thebakasaru
04 December 2008 @ 02:16 pm
bleh  
My chawanmushi never tasted so bad.
bleh.
Blood never talked so good
And honey water never tasted so bland.

Fuck joo ECAD, for having only 5 weeks worth to study but so many terms to remember.
Fuck joo throat, for dying on me on the very day i decide to study.
Fuck joo life, for allowing this cycle to start once again.
And fuck joo Vicki, for being all stupid and not a genius with IQ 200 else you wouldnt have such troubles.

FUCKING STOP SCREAMING INTO MY EARS AND HEAD. FUCK OFF. grr...
 
 
thebakasaru
04 December 2008 @ 01:13 am
I was so angry/ irritated/ down or anything negative today, I went on a crazy retail therapy.
My loot today includes a pair of earrings, 2 rings and a red leopard print scarf~~ xD





I want a something around my neck dammit.--.-- AND MANY MANY OTHER THINGS!


Your choice.
Just be happy.
That is still the only thing I can say to you.
 
 
thebakasaru
02 December 2008 @ 10:20 pm
最怕空气突然安静 最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛著 不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息
想念如果会有声音 不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今 终于让自已属于 我自已
只剩眼泪 还骗不过自己
突然好想你 你会在哪里 过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆 突然模糊的眼睛
我们像一首最美丽的歌曲 变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你 带我走过最难忘的旅行
然后留下 最痛的纪念品
我们 那么甜那么美那么相信 那么疯那么热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去
突然好想你 你会在哪里 过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆 突然模糊的眼睛
最怕空气突然安静 最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛著不平息
最怕突然 听到你的消息 最怕此生 已经决定自己过
没有你 却又突然 听到你的消息